When I speak on behalf of my heart, I speak with intensity.

You will never hear me stutter when the words “I love you” slip from my tongue

And your name will always stay safe in my mouth.

My heart is a battlefield where many wars have been won.

However, many lives were lost, all in which belonged to me.

But with death came prosperity and within that prosperity, strength.

When I speak on behalf of my heart, I speak with intensity.

You will never hear me say I am incapable

Because just when I feel like dying, a stronger me arises instead.



I used to be burdened with animosity at the mention of your name

But now I only smile, knowing karma fulfills you in ways I never could.

I hope you’re happy now.


The moon these days shines brighter than the sun.

It illuminates my naked soul

Because you left my world in darkness.

I watch the sun rise and set.


Another day without you by my side.

Each day worse than the last.

Why would you hang the moon

If you weren’t willing to see me bare,

Unclothed, existence exposed for you to see?

Planning for the Future

Planning for the future

For my future

For a future where happiness remains sustainable.

Like energy that flows from one living thing to the next.

Like a tree that provides oxygen for our careful breaths of life.

But unfortunately, I am failing at this plan for the future

For my future

For a fuure where happiness remains sustainable.

Because the energy I receive is not the energy I release.

I intake the energy of my parents disbelief, careless judgment, and disheartened disappointment.

The energy I obtain is of a plan that turns lonely.

The support that used to stabilize me has turned to dust and the support i have now is shaking.

My plan for happiness will fail, as will I, mentally.

His love will run out on me.

Her presence will leave me.

Every piece of my sanity, disappearing within 365 days.

Planning for the future.

For my future.

For a future where happiness hides in the shadows of a smile.

Honey (01.04.19)

My sun and moon

You illuminate my world, every darkest crevice is brought to the light.

Like a child in a candy store, you’re my own personal heaven.

Your name is honey on my tongue

I’ve never tasted something so sweet.

Your voice ignites butterflies that flutter in the cage of my ribs.

Your lips leave a trail down my body, your path marks prickles on my skin, following behind your touch.

Your hands move as if they know their destination.

My body an old back road.

Your eyes hold mine, steady.

And our breath becomes one.

Your name is all I can think to say.

You’ve consumed all body, mind, and soul.

Your mind searches me

But for what?

I can feel you pull me closer.

My body burns for your touch.

With you, time stands still.

And I’m reminded why you are my greatest weakness

As your tongue dances across mine

Tasting just like honey.