Planning for the Future

Planning for the future

For my future

For a future where happiness remains sustainable.

Like energy that flows from one living thing to the next.

Like a tree that provides oxygen for our careful breaths of life.

But unfortunately, I am failing at this plan for the future

For my future

For a fuure where happiness remains sustainable.

Because the energy I receive is not the energy I release.

I intake the energy of my parents disbelief, careless judgment, and disheartened disappointment.

The energy I obtain is of a plan that turns lonely.

The support that used to stabilize me has turned to dust and the support i have now is shaking.

My plan for happiness will fail, as will I, mentally.

His love will run out on me.

Her presence will leave me.

Every piece of my sanity, disappearing within 365 days.

Planning for the future.

For my future.

For a future where happiness hides in the shadows of a smile.

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